I finally did it!

It was a very meaningful and blessed day for me!

I finally did it - passed the 'qualified blood donor' test and finally able to donate 350ml blood... in the past you would have recalled that I got rejected again and again because of insufficient iron count, but by the grace of God I'm now healthy and fit enough to donate... I can't describe how blessed is the feeling... all other things do not matter to me (big needle and painful experience, side effect of putting on weight thereafter)...

Well, I'm glad that I did it.... and because of my 'courageous' move, a few others gave their 'first' time too.... you can tell from our satisfying looks :P

Hurray!

I can love again...

I remembered some time ago that I blogged about the pain or reluctance of growing up, having to face many issues and reality of life.....and my last entry was about my disappointment over a friendship.... after abt 2 months of struggles, I guess i've finally grown out of it...

People say i'm full of emotion... the more you engage your heart, the more you're vulnerable.... I agree.... that's why I couldn't grow out of my disappointment, disillusion and hurts...

But last friday's cell meeting topic was good..... it reminded me again about what's care.... care is very central to God's heart and it is a commandment from God....and most of all God initiated and taught us how to love and care... that is the strength and source that keeps us going... we will never exhaust our ability to love if we're fulfilled and contented in God's love... even if we get hurt, we keep going and trying....

I feel I'm ready to do it again........ thank you Lord...

Unexplainable...

Dunno if you've felt like this before...

Down but refuse to find out why or give much thoughts into it...just know that there are a few things at the back of your mind...
Helpless coz there's nothing you can do to help the situation and you're seeing things getting worse by day...
Frustrated becoz you just wish things do not happen the way it is now..
Angry becoz you just do not like or want to be 'in it'...

I dunno how to explain the 'feeling + emotion'.....but that kinda sums up how I feel recently...

It's quite a difficult period for me.....I can only hope and pray for the better....

reality of the world....

Recently been a bit down affected by something that I come to realise and observe about a close friend of mine... felt like as if I don't know this person anymore... it is an extremely lousy feeling... then the person tried to cover up and pretend it's not there but you know the damage is already irreversible... and further justification or defence will only make things worse....

I know that I shouldn't judge/ be upset/ hold unforgiveness towards this person......but can't help it.... please pray for me to shake off the 'naggy feeling' of 'should-I-forgive, should-I-not?'... 'should I let go, should I not?'....and 'should I give this person the benefit of doubt or should i not' ......

Is that what you called the REALITY of the cruel WORLD? How often do we meet people like that?

It was sweet...

Yup, i'm talking about the Trip To Sabah...

As I start to recollect all the memories of that short 4 days-3nights trip to Sabah, the beloved place where I grew up in....it was just short and sweet...

I managed to spend time with my secondary school best friend E Tian....and find that we're still so real to each other and able to connect our hearts so well....we talked quite a bit, about people, about the past, about the present condition and circumstances we're both in, we talked about our family, the friends or people around us etc...

I managed to pass by or visit places with many fond memories about the past - Tanjung Aru Beach, Tshung Tsin Secondary School & Pre-U Centre, Damai shops, my old church Glory Christian Centre, Kundasang & Kinabalu Park, Hot Spring, Tanah Emas and Lido, Karambunai, the Islands etc...

I managed to recognise most of the roads and even drove up to Kundasang and come back and find our way back to the hotel.....great adventure...

All in all, I managed to really let loose, let my hair down and did my best to relax and enjoy myself.... we had wine at the bedroom the 1st night in the 'cold' and talking about girl's stuff etc... next is E Tian drove me all the way up to Karambunai on the 2nd night for fine-dining and we talked our hearts out.... and on the 3rd day I threw myself into the sea and just swam and swam forgetting about work, stress, worries and all the concern behind....the sea, the sand and the snorkeling really did wonders... and of course my long awaited visit to Tanjung Aru, the place where E Tian and I had so much memories and interesting experiences to share.....I enjoyed myself thoroughly!

Not forgetting the effort my friends put in to plan the itinerary for us, enquire about hotel, about car and always getting us the information and the things we need for the entire trip... it just warmed my heart....

I missed Sabah dearly.....and I missed my friends sorely....I hope to be back again SooN!

For pictures, can visit my facebook http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/album.php?aid=121537&id=661352737

In anticipation...

With much excitement and anxiety, and great anticipation.....i'm counting down on the days where I'll be flying back to Sabah - the land where I was borne and I dearly miss...

It's been 12 years that i've been away.... lots of changes and development since..... the environment change.... so as the people.... visiting some old friends feels weird as some I had not kept in touch for quite a while and some were the people whom you were once close but not anymore...

Dunno what to expect....I just know that I need a break from my hectic work and that's the best place to be.... nature... beautiful scenery without much distraction like shopping or busyness or noises etc.... I really hope and pray that it'll turn out to be a wonderful and memorable trip as I do not know when I will go back there next....

It's definitely gonna be an exciting and adventurous trip as we're gonna rent a car straight from the airport and drive up to Kundasang as our first itinerary on the list......and the next highlight will be island visit.... I can already see the blue/greenish mountain with the mist and clouds....and smell the beach and the sand and hear the sea breeze and birds chirping.......

I can't wait.............SABAH, I'm COMING!!!!!!!!